It's been a crazy week and work has been very stressful. I have several hours of OT already for the week. I haven't had time to really do much posting or reading. I will do some catching up today though if things continue to be a little better. Even though it has been a rough week I have managed to do what I set out to do and that was start getitng more sleep. Each night I am in bed by 9pm even though it has me tossing and turning for a little while before falling asleep. I was able to get up earlier this morning and not hit the snooze so much. I feel like I have more energy and I think I am on my way to a better energy level in general for myself now. That should help a great deal in getting back in focus on my health and working out.
March 2006 Archives
Weight 280.5
My weight today is the same as last weeks. However I know when I checked it yesterday that it was actually a pound less. This was before bad eating and depression I dealt with yesterday. Both steming from feeling like I had too much on me. I work full time and seem to be the only person currently working to make sure all the home matters run smooth. Plus I got a call from work that someone had quit. On a side note I found out that the person has changed their mind to just needing some time off for a couple of weeks. I can understand this cause this person just lost their brother, he died from a heart attack and I know very well how hard a family death can be on you. As far as the home matters I have a talk with my partner about how things were going to have to change.
I am currently working an extra shift today to cover the girl I work with being out. Once I get off work I will do some grocery shopping so that there are healthy things at home to eat. I have been looking at my little personal datebook, it's one with a health minded notes in it, and for March it talks about how important it is to get enough sleep. It is a topic that hits home with me right now. To say my sleep schedule has been off would be an understatement. I really need to work on this cause I know it's important.
Well my lack of sleep for the last few days finally got to me yesterday and I slept from 7pm to 6am this morning. I feel like a new person. The problem with getting enough sleep was not as much in what time I went to bed but that once I was there I couldn't sleep or I was constantly waking up. I know the biggest part was the change in weather...we had a few warms days. Found out quickly that when the worked on the heat pump a month ago that they did something that broke the A/C....it blows hot air now. Yesterday was much cooler temps and I got a great nights sleep. Now I have to get the heat pumped checked out again.
I have also decided to count all the weight I lost as I lost a few pounds before going to WW. My highest recorded weight was from a doctor visit, it was 316. It just feels important to me to count all of the distance that I have gone cause it was hard work. My lowest weight before I started to gain it back was 227 which was right before leaving on vacation, it was not recorded as my WW but I still think I need to reconize how far I got. I am going to break the 200 barrier and get to Onederland....more than that I am also going to get to my goal weight and learn to maintain it. It's kind of strange to me how my mother's death threw me so far off track and how my father's passing seems to have brought me back.
Weight 280.5
I hadn't wrote about it here but I had stopped going to WW. It happened after missing a month straight due to being sick and then my father's funeral. I decided it was time to take a break from it. It was not doing me any good to go to the meetings and not follow the plan and for some reason no matter how good my intentions were to start out each time I would fizzle. So I am taking a break. I may go back and I may not. I think for everything to work in the real world I need to find my own way of eating healthy. I believe I have learned a great deal from WW and it was very worth while going but right now I am moving on. So my main goals are to work on eating healthy, watch protion sizes and get exercise every day. Things that I learned through WW, the health magazine and books I have read. One thing that WW did for me was have a weigh in day so now Sundays are going to be that day and I will post the weight here on the blog. I need something to help keep me accountable and paying $11.00 a week for something I feel like I am failing at wasn't healthy which is why this is my solution.I spent some time today touching up the site and getting the colors to match better to the logo I had made. On a fitness note I got out and went for a walk on the local walking trail. It was an enjoyable walk on a very nice day. After the walk I laid down on the bed and watched the clouds move in the sky out the window. I started to do a lot of thinking. I came to an insight....when I was young I didn't really have any weight problem. I was in fact pretty skinny. I was thinking about what was different about then. One big thing jumped out at me. When I was young I would go out and play for hours after school. But as we get older we don't play anymore. So I am going to back to playing. Probably not dump trucks and tree climbing (was quiet the tomboy when I was growing up) but taking time for long walks, some sports and other things that are "fun" play.
I have a new look to the blog and it turned out much easier than I thought. Only problem was my paint program hosing up on me in the middle of the process. Thankfully I was able to do a print screen and save the picture. I however was not able to add the rest of what I had planned to do to it but that is okay...it works the way it is.
It's the weekend and I am so glad. Plus it is suppose to be a very NICE weekend. I plan to get some walks in and maybe a little pre-work to my herb garden. Hopefully the weather will work with me on this cause I do want to get in a lot of activity this weekend.
Well after a crazy day at work filled with lots of excitement I finally got home but nearly got run over by some mad woman on the way. Once I was home I spent 24 minutes on my exercise bike. I was panting during the last couple of minutes telling myself I could do it. I kept going till the music I was playing stopped. I am so out of shape but that is going to change. It's time to get back on track....yea get the train back on the track.
Come on, ride the train, hey, ride it, woo woo
Come on, ride the train, hey, ride it, woo woo
Come on, ride the train, woo woo, hey
Ride it, woo woo
Come on, ride the train
Woo woo, hey, ride it, woo woo
Come on, ride the train
It's the choo choo, ride it, woo woo
Come on, ride the train, it's the choo choo train
Come on, ride the train, it's the choo choo
Ride it, woo woo
Come on, ride the train, it's the choo choo train
I haven't done an entry in a while, way too long in fact cause the last time was the end of January. I spent almost all of Feburary sick either with stomach flu or sinus infection (possibly with strep on top). Whatever it was it took some antibiotics to clear it up. Then my father passed away suddenly at the end of Feburary, he had gone down hill so fast after my mother's death about a year and half ago. I feel like I got run over in Feburary...just completely flatten out. This month I am trying to get back on my feet. My emotions seem to have gone numb in ways. Right now I am focused on getting things I need to get done for my family. I am trying to get back on track with my eating and to get exercise back to being a regular thing in my life because I know that helps me to cope.
On another note I need to do something with the design of the blog. It was fine for the winter months but spring is growing closer and the snowflakes need to go. It might look a little weird while I work on it but hopefully that will not be for long.
