Finding ONEderland

Well good news, I was able to drive the car without worrying I was going to blow the engine. Bad news, I got to get it into the dealer so they can find the leak in what they termed the EVAP system. I think it's got to do with the vacuum system but never got an answer on it that really told me anything LOL. So going to see if I can get a half a day off today to take my car to the dealer since they are the only one in town that has the smoke system thingie (what they have to use to find the leak...place I normally go to doesn't have one). And that will probably be over 100 bucks. Oh well that is better than the last time I had a check engine light come on and a seal had bust to let the water flow into the engine (long story short....it's why I bought the new car I have now...which isn't so new anymore).

I didn't get to work out yesterday at Curves and I was going to take a walk but it started to rain. It's still raining this morning...in fact it's coming down right good outside now. I did get in bed last night at 9pm and get a good bit of sleep though i did wake up off and on cause the DH hadn't came to bed.

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I'm trying my best to start the week out good. I got my gym bag packed so that I could stop at Curves on the way home. I start off for work this morning and the check engine light comes on. So I go to call into work and tell them I am going to take it by the shop and would be late. I find out my co-worker has called in sick and therefore I can't miss. So I turn the car around, drive home and get my dad's old car and drive that to work. I will have to get my car to the shop after work. My gym bag is still in my car...not that I am sure I could find time to get a workout now. Least it should be packed for tomorrow. Also I have heard that the engine light could be just because it passed 66,000 miles and that was when my warranty ran out. That sucks....scare me over something like that is just stupid on the car makers part.

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I have been working on my site some. I got the blogrolling added to it without any problem. It will be much easier to keep up that list now. I have also been thinking about new colors and all since fall is close at hand. We'll see what comes of that in the next month or so.

Speaking of doing things I had been meaning to get done for a while. I finally uploaded a couple pictures to share with you all.
This was before I started WW. It was taken at my Mother's birthday party. I didn't actually get to see this photo till after I had lost a good amount of weigh. My sister had it and had pulled it out and gave me a copy. I don't have too many before pictures.

It is hard when you fail and gain some of the weight back but I am going to get back to where I was before and I will go beyond that to make goal and stay there.

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Wow...hadn't wrote anything since Monday. I have been playing catch up reading what all you guys have done. Added a few new people to my blog list on Blog Navigator (program I use to keep up with the blogs I read). I signed up for Blog-rolling but I still need to configure and put it on the site. It will make it much easier as I have been doing the list by hand.

My doctor appointment on Tuesday went well. I don't have to go back for 6 months. We are still not sure what is causing some of my weird chest feelings but they seem to be happening less and less and i think with more every day exercise that it is going to get better.

Found out that one of my cousins passed away of a massive heart attach. He was only 41 and it was a shock. So I have been dealing with emotions from that because not only the shock but anger that it could happen like that without any chance to say good bye.

So rest of my week has been emotional charged from family and work stuff. I am not happy at work right now and next week promises to be so much more fun then this last week *sigh*. I actually caught myself doing an emotional eating thing today. I bit into an apple so hard I shocked myself. It was harder than I was expecting it to be and that helped me to realize the force I put into. It was close to lunch and I was getting hungry but the reason I grabbed the apple was not so much that as it was I was very stressed and couldn't just get up and leave at the moment. Since then I have had some relaxing mellow music playing (yahoo stream) and that has helped some.

I am looking forward to the weekend so much. I just need to be out of the office and able to do more than sit on my butt all day.

I called the local WW office and was checking on going back. They are not offering the special I have been reading about on some of the blogs. The one where you pay one flat rate and get both meetings and etools. So I told the lady that was too bad and she might want to pass on to the owner that I would have came back if that plan was one they were doing. I am annoyed at this WW franchise because they don't offer a lot of things like that. That is a drop in the bucket to the stuff over the years...including always having higher rates than others (we have another within 30 minutes of me but I dont' want to have to drive that far each week to go to a meeting).

Anyway I hope all of you are doing well.

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Weight 275.5

No news on the biopsy so that is good news cause they were only going to contact me if there was a problem. This put me in a good mood because not only was it not cancer, I also got the thing removed off my nose. I know longer look like I have a nasty pimple all the time. It is healing up well and as far I can tell there will not even be a scar. I go see my regular doctor tomorrow. I was suppose to seen her last week but I got my appointment day screwed up in my head and missed it. *sigh* Feel like I am getting old some days.

Along with feeling tired today the first part of the morning was pretty rough trying to get all the stuff done that I needed to get done. However I am feeling better now and it stopped being such a sucky Monday....hopefully stuff will stay nice now.

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I ended up getting a couple more walks in this week. I didn't get one last night but I had waited for it to cool down and that time it started to rain. I have spent time this morning reclaiming some place in my home for my exercise bike, swedish ball and other stuff. I have had a problem since my father passed away and I some stuff piled up in this room that I couldn't enjoy it like I was doing before. Heck I was lucky if I could hardly move through the room without tripping over something. After much rearranging of the closet and tossing out of stuff I can move some what but I still have a little way to go to get it where I want it. We so need a bigger house.

Stepped on the scale today and they are going back down. I was nearly back up to 280 at one point but I am back to 275.5 now. Still a little ways to get back where I was however I am getting there.

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I almost didn't post today. It was another rough day at work and something that happened during the last moments I was there set me off big time. At one point I thought about getting on here and posting a warning and just let loose with a rant but then I ended up going out to eat and ate my anger. It's not good but it's okay because I did go out afterwards and buy some stuff at the store so I am now well stocked and more ready when it comes to what I eat. As far as work well the short of it was that it seems hard workers like myself always get more piled on us while we are being told to help those that refuse to do the hard work. Beyond that I am not going to get into it and get myself upset again. Why I am not upset now? Was it because I ate my anger? Nope. Then why? Well because I had a good long walk that helped to make me feel better. This walk almost didnt' happen. After the day I had and eating my anger I almost didn't do it but then I opened my email and there was a comment, someone telling me what a good job I was doing. Thanks Lynette...your support was what I needed. So I put on my walking shoes, laced them up and headed out with my DH in tow (he needed the exercise too).

Those comments we make on each others blogs....somedays they make all the difference.

Oh...btw check out Lynette's blog....she's a great read. http://bigassbelle.blogspot.com/

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I tried a santa claus melon last night. It is close to a honey dew in taste. It is pretty good. I had leftovers so I cut them up and placed them in two bowls (about 1 1/2 cup each). This morning I grabbed one and bought it for work as a something for a snack, along with some low fat string cheese. It worked wonderfully.

I had blood work done yesterday. I was waiting to go to see if the funny fluttering feeling came back since the test was for thyroid. My appointment is next week and I was beginning to think I would have to get the blood work done even if it didn't happen but it started again. Seems to come around about every month and half. So if it is thyroid then hopefully it shows up something.

I was looking around at Spark People. I had signed up for that back a little while but not used it like I had thought I would. They are doing really good with the site and it deserves more looking into. I see a few things that might be very useful. My goal is to get into eating healthy all the time and away from what is "normal" way we eat. Because the normal is making more and more people sick and very over weight. In the process I hope to control my weight and get in much better shape. I have a lot of bad eating habits to break away from....years and years of them. I was actually thinking that it does mean I don't eat out as often and the reason for that is most food you eat out is not healthy and we shouldn't really eat out as much...it's a part of the problem since their are few good choices and even those are usually way over portioned. And to not think of it as being deprived because in fact eating at home is much better for me and is a good and positive thing I am doing for myself. Plus I am a good cook and I can make stuff that taste a good as most of the places.

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It's been a little bit of hit and miss. I am working on getting back to my healthy habits. I will be cooking dinner at home, eating out is one of my biggest hurdles. I need to get past this taking the easy way out because I am tired after a day of work. It's not doing my body any good.

The heat was rough over the weekend however I did manage to get out and mow the yard which was a nice bit of exercise (true push mower, not self propelled). I had to stop 3 times for water breaks. It's been raining a lot, first it was evening showers about the time I started to take a walk grrr. Then last couple of days it has been drowning rains. In fact I had to turn around yesterday because I came to a spot where the road was so flooded I couldn't drive through it. Or least I wasn't going to unlike a few other people who did and the water was over the bottom of the vehicle doors. Last thing I wanted to do was drown out the car and have it fill with water. Some how I think that would be bad for the inside. The rain has stopped the walking I wanted to do and I am hoping for drier days soon.

I am sporting a big bandage on my nose today. I went and had the place checked on my nose and they did a biopsy just to make sure it is not cancer. I should know in around a week if it is just an annoying fibrous tissue or something worse. I was actually very nervous about this since I had never had a biopsy like this..especially on the face. The numbing hurt...not so great having a needle stuck in your nose but then I didn't even feel what the doc did. So not as bad as I was afraid of. Now I am hoping for good results and that is nothing serious.

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My back is so stiff right now from all the sitting all day. I have tried to do a couple of stretches. It helped a little but what I need most is to get back to walking. I haven't took a walk in.....hmmm think it's been at least over a week. It's been so hot that it just takes my breath when I am outside in the sun. I have to start back up, I know this. Time to get out this evening, spray on the bug repellent (I hate getting bit and the little suckers just love me when I am not sprayed down) and hit the walking trail. I have had the back problems since '97 and I know full and well if I don't get in my walks that I have worse pain. If I do my walks then I have very little pain.

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Weight 274.5

Well that lesson learned (least for now) and I am back to what makes me feel good.

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