Finding ONEderland

For feeling so good a few days ago I am sure feeling not so good right now. I know most of it is PMS and causing me to be in this mood. I am tried and cranky. I am dissatisfied with my job. One of the big things about it right now is it is boring me to death. At one point I was super busy at work but now not so much. I could get it all done in an hour but it's spread out over a whole day. Since I answer phones I can't just leave once I have my stuff done. This leaves me trying to find filler to get me through the day. I can only handle so much internet. Of course this boredom leaves me getting the munchies more than ever so I am having to fight that too.

Even though I have tried to get extra sleep this week I have not been able to. Something or someone is constantly waking me up or keeping me from getting to sleep to begin with. I wish I could go into work later then it wouldn't be such a big deal.

I also need to get back to working out as I am sure that will help me feel better. I don't seem to be able to drag myself into Curves when I am lacking sleep. I want to go home and try and get a nap. It's only been a couple days without a workout. I really need to pull it together and change this now. I don't want my loosing streak to stop now. I need to get some of this weight off me so I feel better.

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The meeting was okay but there was one thing that bothered me. The "there are no bad foods". I disagree with that because there are ones that are. First off anything with trans fats in it. Bad for the heart. Stuff that is way over processed or extremely high in fat. There are things that I avoid and do so not because of the weight gain but because of what they would do for the inside of my body. Now I do have some processed stuff. I do eat some low cal and artificially sweeten things as treats. But I try and limit those too because there are better things I can get in. I guess I just worry that some people out there don't know the whole story and saying there is no bad foods is hiding the truth that there are things out there that should have a frigging warning on them of what damage eating them could do to you. *sigh* I'll get off my soap box now.

I got a 25 minute walk out today as it was 60 degrees outside. Just a little nippy cause of the a slight breeze but over all it was very nice. I've also started doing my WATP DVD again. Tomorrow is suppose to be 60 again but with rain so I am not sure if I will get to walk outside.

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I decided to use some of my points since I had 19 left for dinner and choose to have beer battered shrimp at one our restaurants. They have changed the way they make the batter and it was not as good as it has been. I was a little disappointed in this but it's okay. I did learn one thing. I think one of the differences was there was less salt. I am starting to see I have a salt issue. So I have been cutting back where I can. I will have to work on this more and I know my taste buds will adjust at some point.

For lunch today I had veggie soup, tuna with a little fresh ground pepper and some mustard mixed in and fresh kiwi and strawberries. Since I didn't have time here last night to fix the fruit I actually took it to work and spent the first couple of minutes of lunch slicing it up. I am proud of all the changes I have been making and the healthy meals I have been getting in. I am looking forward to doing much more. I actually enjoy eating healthy foods and love the taste of them.

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I have had a pretty good day. I spent it doing some house cleaning and a lot of laundry. I always feel better when things are clean and in their places. I also took time to do a bunch of reading today to help fuel my motivation on healthy eating. My eating was OP and all I really need was a little more exercise, though the cleaning did give me some. I also prepared some things ahead of time for my work meals so I will make good choices. I have some chopped veggies for snacks and hard boiled eggs so that I can get a "stick with me" protein in for breakfast.

The snow is almost gone outside. It didn't stick around long which is not a surprise. When I was out today I didn't see a single snowman...that did surprise me but maybe I just wasn't in the right neighborhoods to see any. From what I can see about the weather it is suppose to warm up this week. Low 50s tomorrow and then moving up to mid 50s for a couple of days and then reaching mid 60s by Thursday. I hope to get at least a couple walks in during this. It's suppose to rain some but hopefully not all the time.

Well time to get to sleep. I am working on getting enough as I seem to loose much better when I do.

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Another thing I am celebrating is that I finally got the people I read on blogspot added back to my reader and it working to let me see the page like it use to before the beta. I was able to put back 11 blogs that I had been trying to keep up with a different way (failing horribly I might add).

It's been snowing all day and we actually have some snow on the ground. I don't know if it will be there tomorrow but it sure looks pretty tonight. We haven't had a good snow in a very long time. It would be nice if it does a few more inches so the local kids can see what it is like to make a snowman. Been years since we had enough snow for that.

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I made a point of getting some sleep last night. I was in bed by 8:30 so that I could even make up some sleep that had been missed. It felt good to get so much rest. I need to start heading to bed by 9:00 so that I have time to read for 30-45 minutes and still get 8 hours sleep.

My weigh-in day is tomorrow, I stepped on the scale this morning and can't really tell any difference from last week. I really want warm weather to get here. I know once it does that I can get that scale number to start going down better. I am just not much of a mover when it is cold. My skin gets dry and itchy and I only want to find some place to curl up and sleep. Not that I do much of the latter because I tend to miss out on my sleep most the time.

Have you heard about the peanut butter warning? MSNBC article I had this stuff in my shelves but we had barely ate on it. Can't help to wonder if that might have been the reason I got so sick last year with my tummy issues twice in a roll. It's been tossed in the trash now and I was able to get over whatever it was without having to do to the doctor...not sure if you can do that with food poisoning or not. Seems like every where you turn there is something wrong with our food supplies these days. It's kinda scary.

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Once again I had an entry typed up and almost ready to send when it got lost. This time cause my computer just decided to turn off and stop working. Then it didn't want to power up any part of it at all. Talk about giving me a fright. I haven't found the reason for it and hopefully it's just a fluke thing.

First I am joining Snackie to post a Vday post. "HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY SELF-LOVE DAY!" So what is it that I love about myself? I love that I am a caring person and even though I have gone through some rough crap I have not let it harden me. I still put myself right out there and take the risk because I believe it is better to live life full of love and caring than any other way. And I almost forgot...now I am to ask you all to post what you really like about me. So comment away.

I took today off as a vacation day so that I could spend it with my DH. There was no where else I would rather be than with him. He means so much to me. I got a surprise here today too. I answered the door expecting it to be a sales man but instead it was a guy with roses. My DH had them sent to me...the surprise was cause I had already got my vday gifts and didn't expect the roses too.

The weather has turned cold today. It's back below freezing. I am so wanting Spring here and being able to take walks outside every day. I know there are those of you that take walks even in this cold but I don't tolerate it well. The cold air cause my skin to have fits. As it is I have to keep lotioned up all the time to avoid serve dry patches and cracks in my skin.

Last but not least....Happy Valentines day to all of you!

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I had an entry all typed up and it got ate by the browser. I was talking about some things that were bothering me at work. The main thing is it's been causing to fight stress eating. For the most part I have done really well with stopping it though I did eat a little more tonight that I would have liked.

I worked on the website some today and got the IM notifiers to working again. I also like how my weigh-in looks with the CSS I did. I put a picture of my scale in front of them. I like doing little things like that with CSS.

Today was a nice and warm. It did start to rain as I got off work so I didn't get to take advantage of it and get a walk in like I was hoping. Tomorrow the temperature is suppose to start dropping again. I wish Spring would hurry up and get here.

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I am finding myself in a really bad mood today. I hate the lack of information I am getting about my current job. I am stressed about what direction it is going to take. I would really like to be able to plan for the future some. I just hate being on hold and that is what this job has been for almost a year now. I can't talk about it in detail like I would like to either because the wrong person might see it. It's just annoying as heck. I guess it is mostly that and it is causing people to get on my nerves too and I hate this feeling. It's like a bad case of PMS.

Least I was able to get something out. However I think what I really need is a vacation and a new job (or to win the lottery but then I rarely play so chances really are not in my favor LOL).

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Such a long time between posts again. I ended up sick again. This time a cold going around work. I started fighting it off with some meds soon as it hit. It was a tough one though and I am just now feeling better. I missed the second WW meeting since going back but I am sure they would rather I do that then break this into them. I don't like making others sick.

I have kept myself eating healthy foods and I believe there will be a loss show on the scales when I go weigh this weekend. I'll post it once I know. Last weigh in was 282. I need to get to posting those on here again.

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