I should have had this done when I was a kid. I remember going and having my teeth looked at when I was a young teen to see if the insurance would cover it. I don't know why it never happened though. I know several people that had the same insurance and with teeth not as bad as mine and it was done. I don't know who dropped the ball there...the insurance, the orthodontist or my parents. Guess I will never know. Then during my first marriage I checked on having it done but our insurance didn't cover it. About 6 years ago I was going to have it done myself and my car died and I had to have another which meant payments that weren't in my budget and the place wanted a huge down payment too which I only had half of. So over the years it has got put off and put off. Now it is finally happening. I almost can't believe it.

I can't help but wonder if they think I am a little crazy rushing everything the way I have but I want to get it going before something can stop me again.

Part of what brought this on is probably my doing some landscaping to the front yard. And while what I did looks much better than the barren look it was before, I am paying for it in a way I don't want to. Sometimes I am too stubborn for my own good. With back problems like this I need to realize I can't push myself through and do everything I want all the time....especially not when I have been inactive most of the winter and need badly to get in shape.

Bay's Mountain where I do my hiking has also recently acquired new land that it looks like will be turned into some hiking trails and stuff. I love seeing these parts of the city I live in grow.

Now if the storms are done with I can hopefully get out and take advantage of all these wonderful spots to walk.

I made an appointment last week to see an orthodontist today. The appointment went well. I have a lot of crowding on my lower and a bad overbite but then I have known this for a long time and it's the reason I went. I did find out they can't make the perfect because of how bad they are but they do believe I will be happy with what can be done.

I am changing dentist since I use to go near where I worked and that hour drive is not something I want to do now since I have no reason to go that direction other then the dentist....especially with the cost of gas. So I have found new one and will have my teeth cleaned in about a month (soon as I could get an appointment). Something that is really good about it to me is that I can walk to my dentist. Also I can walk to the orthodontist though it is about 25 minutes and I have to cross a semi busy road. I may not do the walk to the orthodontist as much.

The dentist will be able to give the okay about the braces and that my mouth is healthy enough to get them. Hopefully everything will go okay with that...it's been fine in the past. I will be going about a month past my 6 month cleaning because of the switch but that is okay. I think it's a good choice.

If all goes well I will post progress pictures with the whole braces thing. I have looked at some other sites that have adults getting braces...they have been real helpful and interesting to me. It will be so nice to have a pretty smile.

That is down half a pound. I do need to talk to my leader though because the woman that did my weigh in must have got confused and only counted my total weight lost as that half a pound which doesn't count what I have lost before that. Oh well I will get it fixed.

I am in a complaining mood I think. I am annoyed at the parents that park in front of my house. I am sick of cigarette butts being in my yard...of bottles being in my yard. I would never do that to someone's yard. People just don't respect others these days. I am really looking forward to once we move and get our own place. If i can help it I will never live in front of a school again.....ever ever again. Yea this was brought up cause I had just saw a woman put a cigarette out in my yard. But it doesn't do any good to say anything or get mad....I just need to focus my energy on looking forward to when I live some where that doesn't have people parking and waiting on kids. Click my heels 3 times and go some where else. Don't I wish *sigh*

There are good things going on though. Weather is lovely. I am doing well and keeping a positive outlook for my healthy eating...even with Tuesday having been a bad day mood wise. I managed to do a positive shopping trip and not feel my buggy with crap. It's a good thing...I was proud cause a part of me just wanted to say screw it and put in all the junk but another part of me was like "no way...I am not eating that stuff".

I went shopping and bought a buggy full of good for me stuff. Mostly from the produce isle. It was probably the healthiest buggy I have had in a while. I am thinking for lunch today I will have an avocado and tomato salad because those tomatoes are looking very tasty.

Down 3 pounds....all the walking is paying off. Next thing is I have to go back hard core on keeping my food journal. I had been slacking and half doing it. I know a big problem is sometimes not knowing what the points are on something and finding it frustrating.

Got in a 30 min walk today. It was something I had to push myself through because i was a little uncomfortable doing it. But I know as I build up and the weight drops that it will improve and that it is something I need to do so I can become active like I was before. I loved walking and hiking in the past. And I really miss how active I was and how I felt when I was.

I am also still working on cooking at home much more. I am really enjoying the control on my food that this gives me. I am glad to see spring here because it is so much easier to eat healthy when grilling and having warm weather foods like fresh fruits and salads. Those are the types of foods I like when the weather is warm....stuff that doesn't heat me up more.

I went to my Tuesday night meeting. Talk about a big different in what I weigh in the morning before food as to what I weigh in the evening after 3 full meals and some snacks. I think the night meetings are going to work much better for me and I am fine with difference in the weight...it will just be the one big change and next week stuff will be showing up like normal.

I feel like I am getting a sore throat...hope I am not getting sick. Not what caused it just came on all of a sudden about 30 minutes ago.

Thing is a wake up call is a good thing, we need those. I been drifting by on stuff way too much. Letting the winter blues keep me down.

I have decided to change my weigh-in day to Tuesdays and try the night meetings again for the time being. I am so hit and miss on Saturday morning because of having trouble getting up. I am not much of a super early morning person. I love mornings but I would rather have them start at 9 AM. LOL

Had a doctor appointment today...not sure why I scheduled it for valentines day. It went good though. Set up some goals for the future and will be back in six months and have blood work done at that time. I'm looking forward to seeing how well I have done when the next visit comes around.

Now for the subject of todays blog. I am checking out a CD called Skinny Songs. It is a CD of cool little tunes to help motivate one while they are loosing weight. I have listened to the whole CD and there are 10 different songs. It has a few different styles of music on it too...which I think is pretty cool. If you like country or pop there is a song for you. I like a wide range of music so I enjoyed listening to the whole thing.

I do have a few favorites from the album. First is the song Skinny Jeans....it's a great song. We all know how great it feels to get into a pair of jeans after all that hard work. My favorites were some Lee jeans and I working on getting into these jeans. I'll be singing this song on my way to that goal.

Another favorite is Thin! Actually it's probably my top favorite on the album. Though I do change one lyric because I am careful how I use the word diet. Let me explain that a little...it's a personal thing and my definition of diet. It is not a short time thing for me, which is what too many things lead us to believe, it is a life style change...so I just sing, "Guess I'll eat a healthy diet". But don't get me wrong I love the song and find it very motivating!

Another one I would like to mention is Blowin' You off AT 8. This song is for all the ladies that have had been in a relationship with a man that said negatives things about them because of their weight. For me that would be my 1st husband. When listening to the song I could so put myself in a little fantasy of this and talk about motivation. I love this part of the lyrics in the song.

make no mistake about what you see
I didn’t do this for you -- I did it for me